being patronizing. i felt in my heart i was. >> we admire your courage and look forward to hearing from you again. >> likewise, bob. >> reporter: was it a metaphor for you, i mean, fighting? >> yes, it is. i mean, definitely, yes. in fighting you have to take pain to give it and you have to fight back. no matter what round it is, in boxing, unlike baseball, in the seventh inning, if it's 8-1, the stadium empties. in boxing you could hit a nine-run home run. i'm hoping that's going to happen to me, sanjay. >> reporter: you're still hoping? >> oh, yes. >> reporter: the eternal hope they say? >> why not. >> reporter: nick does something more, something i learned from him. he writes his hopes and dreams in a journal. he's done it since giovanna was born. >> it's going to take all of god's grace, which is never in short supply, to make me live longer. i want to for you and mommy so we can be a family here in santa fe.